NO! My year is ruined. again.

Most of you know how I couldn't go to the Paper Towns party on Oct 16th in NYC.
I was ticked off.
Most of you also know that I was 90% going to the Conn one on Nov 12th.
Well, I CAN'T!
My Nanny (grandmother) is having surgery.
It was re-scheduled for tomorrow.
And we JUST found out!
=O
I suppose God really doesn't want me to go.
But, I want to so bad!
I almost cried.
Comfort Me Please!
I need you! <333333
And they aren't coming around my area EVER AGAIN!
*sobs uncontrollably*